I’ve made a big life choice recently.
I’ve been muddling along trying to juggle riding a bunch of horses & working full time……
for a bit too long.
When I left Texas to become “The World’s Oldest Working Student” this little adventure was supposed to be short term.
One – year.
I was going to spend a year riding full time
& when I ran out of money (which wouldn’t take very long) I was going to figure out what the next chapter of my life would be.
And then in the strangest of circumstances I became my father’s guardian.
I definitely didn’t see that coming.
And it put everything in a bit of a holding pattern.
I was still in Florida (so was Dad)
& I was still riding (sort of).
And to afford it all I was still working (way too much)
The BadEventHusband was always supportive, “Honey, that giant trakehner is just – a – log.”
I was floating down a river with little aim, letting it take me where it went.
Then I broke my leg.
And then my arm.
My Dad passed.
And it turned out my new job didn’t have a flexible enough schedule to accommodate an upper level eventing show season.
I had to make some decisions.
Along the way, one thing I realized is that I just can’t do it all.
Being an upper level rider takes way more fitness than anything I’ve ever done.
Having upper level horses requires way more riding, in all weather……..
The mere thought of continuing at this pace for another couple of years makes me down right nauseous.
So I’ve decided to take a break from work to focus on those blue numbers.
I’m still not sure why I’m so driven to check that box.
In warm up last weekend a super experienced professional said to me,”Going advanced really isn’t a big accomplishment unless you do it on a horse that really shouldn’t be going that level to begin with.”
I understand what he meant. Don’t leave the start box on something without talent & rideability for the level.
But for us mere mortals, even on a talented willing mount, I think it’ll still be a pretty big accomplishment.
So at least for now,
I’m taking a break from work to focus on chasing those blue numbers.